Remember

It is probably too early in my life to use a title like "Memories" so I'll substitute it with this. Great thing about the versatility of vocabulary. There is always a word to substitute another. Anywho. Time to blog. Strange thing has happened lately. It's like a huge burden is just gone. Those bitter feelings and just accursed feelings of turmoil have been minimized. The grip of those certain places in my past have such a small effect on me when I revisit them now. It is strange. Those good times that later lead to the bad are completely disconnected. I can find myself wondering freely through the blissful moments I've had without fear of the bad driving me insane. The disconnect is so unusual, but it's so, peaceful. I think I've only felt like this twice in my lifetime. Seems like a lot considering it's been only 16 (going to be 17 in Sept!) years of living, but it is been quite a burdensome 17 years.

The regret is gone. What happend has happend for the best.

It's strange how I can finally and almost freely venture into the past accounts in my mind without having that painful sting of heartache take hold.

So very refreshing.

Growing up

So many sad posts I have on this blog. Hm, let's think of something fresh. Any piano players out there want to duet with me in the upcoming monster concert? Thought I'd just throw it out there even though there aren't any piano players that read my blog or anyone actually. Today is June 27th. 6/27. I just finished my first month of work for a total of ~$400. Not much I guess, but better than others. So fortunate to have a job in today's world. I think it's about time I get this running get-together planned. Or at least something. First month of summer is over! Kind of quick I'd say. Yet, I think I was kept quite busy in that time. When July rolls around, it's going to be even faster and sadder. Senior year? Wee, so much responsibilities and privileges. Time to grow up. Time to step up. We goin' ta rox teh skool? Yeap, totally. Anywho, this should be enough lightheartedness for now. 'Til next time.

I can see clearly now

I remember what my mom would say to me when she would talk to me in Cantonese or Mandarin when there were strangers present or just other people around. She would say that she is talking in another language in order to prevent others from understanding what we were talking about. In some ways I guess this was just to be nice as to not "insult someone." But it seems so shady.

Kinda like gossip. Or talking behind someone's back. What the heck is with that. If you have a problem with me, tell it straight up to my face. Don't try to save face and hide behind your little wall of people. Straight up tell me I am mean or you hate the way I am.

*Shrug* I know you can't get what you want. But is honesty really too much to ask for? Someone has to represent.

Technically, this is the next day

Hm...today is technically not June 1st. It's so weird to be suddenly posting so closely to each other when I don't even bother touching this thing ever. Wee. What is pain? "Weakness leaving the body...weakness leaving the body..." It's a little motto we learned in track my sophomore year for us throwers. And so it comes down to this. What is pain? It is the presence of weakness flowing out of your body. When you overcome pain, you inevitably conquer what made you weak resulting in new-found strength.

Why do I say this? Hm. I guess because it is a new day. A new day yields a new life. Daily do we learn to walk taller and stronger than we did before. Adversity we overcome. Obstacles we shatter. It all makes you who you are in the end. The pain I feel now? Well, we'll wait and see how it plays out.

First day of work

Like the title says. Today, 6/01/09, was my first day of an actual job. I didn't do much. A lot of moving and lifting and clerical work. Helped move around furniture and set up a computer so I could have it to work on. I created a couple of excel spreadsheets and learned a few tricks using that. I feel somewhat accomplished and sick right now. Sick because of lack of sleep and my body just aches. Accomplished to have completed 5 hours (which is about $40 for me?). Summer has just begun and I already miss my friends. Hopefully we will be able to hang out a lot as time passes. Ah well, enough for now.

Sickly

This is the first time I have been sick in a while. I almost forgot what it feels like. I am not even sure if this is a cold or a flu or a fever anymore. It just hurts. Headaches all day. Nose is running more than I do for track practice. Body temperature melts the very rubber off my straw. Sad that my first post is this, but I am so bored sitting at home. I should be sleeping right now, but here I am blogging. With that being said, I will have to end here. 'Til next time :D